For the month of December, I’m participating in a wonderful project called Reverb10. It calls for bloggers to reflect on daily prompts in preparation for 2011. For more information, see Reverb10.
December 31 – Core Story. What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world?
For one of the poetry workshops I participated in several years ago, I had to write a poem about what was inside of me. I really struggled with it because it required me to consider who I am, and who I want to be. It’s an unfinished poem, so excuse the clunker of an ending:
Inside me there is a dirt road
lined with sunflowers.
At one stop there is my father’s garage.
10 year old Jessie is watching him work
his body black with grease and sweat,
bent over the engine of his race car.
Wanting to disappear, I make a fort on my cot
with an old afghan, hiding in there with a book,
wondering if my father will ever find work
so that the garage will be just a garage…and not home, too.
The next stop is my grandmother’s farm
where I spent hours wandering around the garden
barefoot, burying my toes with each step,
taking her discarded weeds and transplanting them
in the corner of the garden because I believed in them.
I saw their beauty and gave them a home
where they could take root again and grow.
I travel further to the place where the road
is still being constructed. The sunflowers
are only ankle-high, and the path ahead is blurry
and unfinished. The road could take me anywhere…