I swear, I’ve written hundreds of blog posts in my mind, but I rarely get the chance to sit down and type them out. My boys are visiting with my in-laws this afternoon, so I actually have a couple of hours to myself.
I’m still struggling with balancing my time between work, motherhood, home-stuff, and myself. I get maybe an hour or two a week completely to myself. It’s really not enough for everything I want to do. I’m constantly on alert, waiting for The Kid to need something, even when The Husband is taking care of him. I really need to learn how to relax because my blood pressure is way up, and I don’t want to take medication. And I want to relax!
I’m applying for a full-time tenure-track position at an area community college. I haven’t taught there, but I’ve been there for conferences, and they are light years ahead of where I currently teach. They’re larger, and they have more funding. I would still love to land a FT gig at my current college, but they won’t be hiring an English prof until maybe 2012. I’ve been adjuncting for about five years now, and it’s time I land a FT position. That said, I’m nervous about it because of The Kid. Right now, I’m only on campus two days a week for four hours each day. I’m not sure how I would handle FT work, but I guess I’ll deal with that hurdle if it comes.
The past month has gone by in a blur. My days are filled with prepping for classes, grading, playing with The Kid, changing diapers, cooking, etc. I haven’t really read anything, which is adding to my irritability, I’m sure. I really need to make more time to read.
I’m also very, very tired. The Kid generally sleeps from 10-5:30, but he rarely makes it the entire night in his crib. I’m not sure why, but he wakes up during the night and just wants to be held. I can’t deal with letting him cry it out, so we end up sleeping in the recliner in the living room. I love the cuddling, but the interrupted sleep is killing me. I’m tired all the time, and it’s making me sick. I had strep last week, and I feel a cold coming on now. Not good.
With that in mind, I’m going to set aside the work and take a nap.