I really should be at the library right now, but this recliner is too comfy to leave. I thought about going to B&N…but I really should buy any non-thesis books until the thesis is finished. Which might be never.

I’ve been in college for 14 years. There have been many schools (I transferred a few times), a few majors (business, history, then English), but I never took a break. Not even over the summer, until this one. I was passionate about literature and scholarship, determined to get my PhD. I wanted the cushy professor’s office with stacks of books everywhere. I wanted students to line up at my door to chat because I inspired them. I wanted to spend hours researching and writing journal articles.

Not anymore.

I want to be what I used to think sucked the life out of women — a housewife. I want to cook, bake, clean, do laundry, raise our children, grow a garden, and wear an apron around the house.
I want a more peaceful life. I want the life my grandmother had. Not necessarily the nine children, though. But I would love a farm.

I just wish I could find enough oomph right now to just finish my thesis and graduate. Then I can be a housewife if that’s still what I want.

Anyone have some spare oomph?


About JessieB

Just a 30-something girl trying to figure it all out. I write about weight loss, books, motherhood, life, and whatever is on my mind.
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2 Responses to Oomph

  1. Estella says:

    I’m in the same boat. I just wanna finish the damn thing and be happy with a family and a job…not a professor job. Blahhh.Andi

  2. Oh, how I wish I had a little oomph to give you. All I seem to do is sputter these days! Sometimes if I sputter and cover my mouth people think I’m beat boxing, but really it’s just “sputter, sputter, sputter.”In response to your question on my blog, I’m just taking a workshop at WCCC. It’s designed to help you feel comfortable in the classroom and prepare the teacher-to-be for the public school practices. PS.How are you????

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