More than once in my life, I’ve decided that I need someone like Lloyd Dobler in my life. Today, I need him to tell me to chill.
(Seriously, if you’ve never seen Say Anything, you need to ASAP).
Somehow, over the last 3+ years, I’ve lost the ability to relax. Oh, I’ve always had a tendency to be a little over-analytical, and to over-think things too much, but I could always take a step back and chill. Today, not so much.
The littlest things overwhelm me. A lot.
Dieting is an issue because I don’t know what I want to do. Should I go back to Weight Watchers? Count calories on MyFitnessPal? Track electronically or on paper? If I track on paper, should it be a separate tracker, or in my planner?
Ah, the planner issue! I found a great app that could work, but I prefer pen & paper. But I can’t find the perfect planner that allows me to see my weekly appointments and keep track of my tasks. If you knew the amount of planner angst I have, you’d be…terrified. It’s bad. Very bad. And something that, honestly, plagues me daily, and gets worse when I’m in the midst of the semester with a billion things to do.
Entertaining the kids overwhelms me. I want to take KidPilgrim outside to play in his kiddie pool, but what do I do with BabyPilgrim? I don’t want him crawling on the ground so much, so do I hold him? Do I take the pack & play outside for him? It all overwhelms me to the point where we don’t go out much. Which I know isn’t fun for the kids.
I need to relax. I need to simplify, and just go with the flow. But I’ve over-thought myself into such a corner that it’s hard to dig out.
Plus, for me, summer is almost over, which is adding to my sense of…doom. I start classes on August 26th, so fun time will be limited after that. I wanted to enjoy my summer, and get healthy, and have fun. So far, that hasn’t happened.
Anyone know where I can find Lloyd Dobler?